I am lying in bed writing to you, with the remnants of an odd dream still lingering, clinging to the edges of my consciousness.
I want to say one very important thing. I would never sign a DNR. I want to live no matter how tough it is, no matter how experimental you have to get to keep me alive, to get/keep me healthy. ALWAYS resuscitate. Anyone who says otherwise is working against my best wishes, against my interests, and is not doing as I would have wanted them to.
Now that that is out of the way - I hope this blog post finds you well. That dream really was odd, I am not quite sure what to make of it. The mysterious figure...the people, the circumstances, the stories they told...I remember so much of it, but as I wake up, as I become more alert, the fragments of memories I have of the dream are slowly fading. It is really too bad, it would have made for an interesting story.
Today I work from 8:30 am- 5:30 PM. It's going to be a good day. It's not allowed to be any less, lol.
I've felt a little...off these past few days, I am not really sure why, perhaps it was the incoming red tide that was pending. (pardon the TMI). It IS about that time of the month, and it's starting, if you know what I mean.
As a result I haven't walked Marley for a few days. Initially it was to protect his health, as he had yelped, and maybe was favoring a leg. After he seemed better it was more about me. making sure I felt up for the exercise.
Today I make a new playlist- a wake up one. I like to wake up to music. I find it reassuring -normally. Lately Amazon music has been odd- the songs I wake up to have been a little jarring, for lack of a better term. I like slow music to wake up to, gradually coming awake a little at a time. It is almost as if the base levels are too high and the songs' tempos are a little too fast. The base is like the heartbeat of a song, and it can affect yours, as can the sharpness of the Alexa voice, or the sharpness of a song she plays. I do not like hard and/or heavy base in a song. Even when outside, walking. I have been considering cancelling my subscription, as altering the levels will not fix the problem. I have tried in the past when it did this, but to no avail. It's odd, how it does that sometimes. There is a marked difference in how sound is relayed - it is really too bad - I LOVE my Alexa devices. The sound quality is usually above par. But if it wont stay that way, what is the point in paying for extra music access? Perhaps I should contact Amazon about it first, and give them a chance to correct it.
I believe in giving people and organizations extra chances. It is important for so many reasons. But that is a topic for another blog.
I hope you do well today, and if you are working that your day at work is something you can be proud of, something you'd be proud to tell your Mom, grandmother, or your child about. Even if no one will ever know what you did, you should always act as if they could. That is a good measure of your actions, on if you should be taking them or not. Would people approve if they knew the action, but not the reason for it?
I'll leave that question with you for now. It is something to ponder as you go about your day.
Always leave people and places as good or better than you found them.
You are valuable, and worthy, and the world is better for having you in it.
If you are caregivers, don't forget to give yourself some love too. You deserve it.